As a patient with very low vision, chronic heart failure, type 2 diabetes, weight management concerns and fluctuating hemoglobin levels, it is difficult to not have feelings of isolation, poor body image and self-blame that impact my mental health and wellness. These feelings also impact my honesty and relationships with my primary care team. Being afraid that I’ll be looked down on is one of the main factors that makes me not want to share information with them.
A few months ago, I disclosed that I had a bedbug infestation to my family doctor and nurse practitioner who visit me at home. Although bedbugs do not usually cause physical or medical issues, they had a serious impact on my mental health. I became sleep deprived from night bites and knowing that bugs were crawling through my bedding and clothing. I also felt isolated because I knew that I shouldn’t invite friends or family to visit. I was afraid that telling my health care team about the bedbugs would cause their visits to end.
Every blanket, sheet, pillow, towel and article of clothing I had needed to be washed and put in a hot dryer. Mobility devices, beds, sofas and chairs had to be treated not just once, but two or three times. Everything in my home had to be bagged, wrapped in plastic or tossed. As someone living on a low income, the cost of all of this was horrific. I cried trying to think where I would find the cash to purchase garbage bags or replacement items, or even to pay to launder everything. The work felt never-ending. I spent weeks checking for any signs of infestation.
It has been months since the bedbug problem was eradicated. Even now, when I have appointments with specialists, they often stand up